Friday, September 11, 2009
Today I'm grateful for the timing of God and his graceful ways. I began the day at my Mothers of Preschoolers group to hear a testimony of leaning on god in the time of a loss. A member shared her loss of her Granparents. I don't consider myself a very emotional person but it was hard to see such a upbeat happy friend be upset and therefore a few tears were shed.
As timing goes, when I arrived home only an hour later I learned that my extremely Lovely Penpal Leota who is my children's Great Great Grandma has cancer and is now in a nursing home on heavy medication.
Somewhat normal to hear of someone her age. Not necessarally shocking but she was living on her own only weeks ago. In every one of her letters she has the most beautiful and readable handwriting and in every letter I laugh outloud at least once at her amazing sense of humor .
I've learned today that I won't be able to see her before she passes as it will be somewhat soon.
I have a bit of regret for not driving the 6 hours it takes to get to her to have coffee with her and listen to her stories and her lessons. I hate that all of the wonderful things she knows and has learned I didn't soak up from her.
All I want is to speak with her and hear that she knows how much we love her and how much her presence here was cherished.
On top of saying Goodbye to my beloved Leota, I will also be making a trip to my parents house to photograph my kids with a very close friend of mine when I was a child.
His name is Charlie and he is over 15 years old. He is my Beagle Puppy.
He no longer has the energy to eat, stand or walk. We think he will be leaving us soon also.
When I turned 24 years old this year it was one fo the only days I can remember in my life where I felt I needed to brace myself for my adult life. I know I am extremely young, just a kid but it's time to know what all human beings learn, what life brings as time goes on. The reality that is saying goodbye to loved ones and praising God to for new life.
Bless all of you in your times of praise or loss!